Love

You know this year has got me thinking a lot about love and what it really means to love. Different people get different love but in the end its all the same because its the way you let people in. Im not one of those people that do that a lot. ok ok i dont do it at all. im very bad at it actually. But it makes me think about everything. When you love someone and they leave you lose a lot of you depending on how much you really love them. I have lost a lot of people in my life but i have so many that are still around. I have been thinking about that a lot lately. Everyone has bad times and trust me im no angel this i know. but it makes me think of why everything happens. why people lose love and why some people are just so great with it. Its that connection that feeling that no matter what happens you know that that wont go away. thats what keeps you holding on. its hard to let go of people when you love them so much. Love is a very strong thing. It helps people in hard times but it also can tear you apart. You have friends that love you and people that do so much more then love. Everyone is different which means everyone that they love is loved different. But its so funny of how you stay on the bad times when something goes wrong instead of the times that are so good that you always want to remember. You get caught up in the fights and the separation and not think about how great it is just to be together. You know i have been thinking a lot about that here lately. with everything that has happened the last few months it really makes me think about how good love feels when you have someone that is real. I know this is going to sound weird but sammie, yes my new puppy, has helped me really get by this bump and be able to live life again. i have other people to thank too. all the people that stayed by me no matter my choice. there are only a few but they are the few that really helped me get to where i am. and they know who they are. but its so funny of how full of life sammie is. she has been abused and mistreated and unloved a lot of her life but she still loves the best she can. she shows it everytime i come home or even when im already home and she just comes and stays with me. it makes you think of how love really is. love isnt the same with everyone or everything but it always has the same meaning. it always gives you butterflies when someone is around or just them on your mind. those small things are the best feelings in the world. its been almost a year since patrick and i got married. a year and almost 5 years since we have dated. its so funny how things work out. in the end its your heart that tells you where to go. now a days people dont really love for the right reasons. they think with their heads and stop thinking with their hearts. thats where love comes from. love only is in the heart. and no matter how hard you fight it you can never love from your head. it just ends in pain. ALWAYS.
You know its true life is stepping stones. No matter how hard you try to choose the path you want if its not the path you are suppose to take its not going to go that way.
So for all of you out there looking for love. Try dont give up its a great thing to have in your life. it makes you alive. and keeps you that way. and for those who have found it dont let it go. even if it means moving on and trying to find it again. dont ever give up. Love makes life and it makes you who you are and who you will become.
LOVE WILL TAKE YOU FAR IF YOU ONLY LET IT..... SO LET IT!!!!