Fate

So today i have come to realize a few things. Fate is a funny thing. It comes at a time that you never expect it. But you have to take it with everything that it is. You have to accept that things happen for a reason and that you might not know the reason right now but you will and even if you dont the path you are suppose to be on is what led you to this point.

It comes to my next point. I had a wonderful weekend with the man i love. We havent been out in so long but we went out to a movie and then to a wonderful dinner at lone star. We saw the movie due date. It was very funny and very good. Its funny the more people i see or movies i watch or places i go... i realize how much i truly love him and how much he truly means to me in my life. he is truly one of a kind. he is the best man that i have ever met. he is going thru so much right now but he stays so strong and keeps his chin up. he is a true hero... maybe not to everyone else but to me he is. he is an amazing man and he does everything he can to make everyone else happy even with all that is going on with him. you cant be more wonderful then that. that is only an one of a kind man right there. not many of those left and i got one of the very few that are. I thank God for him every day. he sent him to me at the best time and the time that i needed him the most i just didnt know it at the time how much i really needed him. i really dont know what i would do without him. he makes my world so complete and he amazes me so much. its amazing to me how much i really am myself again since he has been a part of my life and how much i have changed. a change that has been needed but has never really come but was very much needed.

people say that life flashes before your eyes before you die. i dont think thats the only time that that happens. i think your life flashes through your eyes when good things happen and when you think about everything that has ever happened. you see everything that has happened and makes you wonder about why things happen but the more you look at it the more you realize why they do.

bad things happen to good people all the time... things that when you hear about it it just breaks your heart. but whats funny is you never see behind the scenes or what happens afterwards. when you do you see the real person, you see how hurt they really are and how strong they can be even with everything that has happened. people get their families taken away from them but only a few keep their heads up and shows that they are strong enough to handle it. that they will do everything they can to make it so they have their family back but they dont let it get them down. they just try and every time they fail they just try harder. everyone can learn from people like this.

brings me to the next point. you hear all the time about relationships or friendships or lives in general getting left behind because of something that happens in someones past. its hard to let go of the past. letting go the past most people think is letting go of who they are. who they have become because of it. and then its even harder to let go of all the heart breaks that occur especially when some people seem like they have more then others. but i have come to learn that its not about the heartbreaks. its not about who or what broke your heart or how many times it has happened. its about how you react to the heart break and the people or things that happened with it. its more about finding the person that no matter how many heart breaks you might have had in your past and even the ones that you might get in your future. its about having the person that even though they might break your heart on occasion they try like hell to repair it to better then it was. those are the people or things to keep around. the past happened for a reason and you shouldnt want to change anything about it because it has made you into the person you are today but you shouldnt let your past continue into your present or your future. if you let it continue you will never become who you are truly meant to be but stay the person you are. the whole point of life is to live and learn... not to dwell on what you know and the unknown. everything does happen for a reason and you might not know the reason but you have to keep your chin up and know that no matter what happens the present is what is written not your future. thats why its called the future... it can be changed whenever you see is best and only you can make the life you want... you just might have people around you to help you figure it all out.